In this insightful address, the speaker candidly discusses the feelings of insecurity and self-doubt experienced as a Harvard freshman, juxtaposing them with the expectations of success that come with fame. The narrative highlights the pressure of fulfilling external expectations and how overcoming these doubts can lead to the creation of a unique, personal path defined by individual reasons rather than societal standards.

The speaker shares personal anecdotes, illustrating how early professional failures were instrumental in discovering the intrinsic value of creativity and passion over external validation. By embracing inexperience and viewing it as an asset, the speaker argues one can achieve meaningful experiences and personal fulfillment, making it imperative to pursue paths that resonate with one's inner calling, even in the face of adversity or societal conventions.

Main takeaways from the speech:

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Key Vocabularies and Common Phrases:

1. Insecurities [ˌɪnsəˈkjʊrɪtiz] - (n.) - Uncertainties or anxieties about oneself; lack of confidence.

Sometimes your insecurities and your inexperience may lead you, too, to embrace other people's expectations.

2. Dubious [ˈduːbiəs] - (adj.) - Hesitating or doubting; not to be relied upon.

I realized that seriousness, for seriousness sake, was its own kind of trophy, and a Dubious one.

3. Instructive [ɪnˈstrəktɪv] - (adj.) - Useful and informative.

I think that contradiction can be Reconciled and is, in fact, Instructive.

4. Prophecy [ˈprɑːfəsi] - (n.) - A prediction of what will happen in the future.

Their bearing and self confidence alone seemed proof of their Prophecy.

5. Profound [prəˈfaʊnd] - (adj.) - Very great or intense; having deep meaning.

assumed I'd find a more serious and profound path in college.

6. Rigidity [rɪˈdʒɪdəti] - (n.) - Inflexibility; firmness.

I feared people would assume I had gotten in just for being famous and that they would think I was not worthy of the intellectual rigor here.

7. Assumptions [əˈsʌmpʃənz] - (n.) - Things accepted as true without proof.

Assumptions and expectations surrounding her.

8. Articulate [ɑːrˈtɪkjuleɪt] - (v.) - Expressing an idea fluently and coherently.

I had no ideas how to declare I had no idea how to declare my intentions. I couldn't even articulate them to myself.

9. Prestigious [prɛsˈtɪdʒəs] - (adj.) - Inspiring respect and admiration; having high status.

The girls I went to school with had prada bags and flat ironed hair.

10. Flourish [ˈflʌrɪʃ] - (v.) - Develop rapidly and successfully.

The joy in work ethic and virtuosity we bring to the particular can impart a singular type of enjoyment to those we give to.

Harnessing Inexperience to Forge Your Own Path

Hello, class of 2015. I am so honored to be here today. Dean Karana, faculty, parents, and most especially graduating students. Thank you so much for inviting me. The senior class committee. It's genuinely one of the most exciting things I've ever been asked to do, I have to admit, primarily because I can't deny it, as it was leaked in the WikiLeaks release of the Sony hack, that when I was invited, I replied, and I directly quote, my own email, wow, this is so nice. I'm going to need some funny ghost writers. Any ideas?

This initial response, now blessedly public, was from the knowledge that at my class day we were lucky enough to have Will Ferrell as class day speaker one, and that many of us, hungover or even freshly high, mainly wanted to laugh. So I have to admit that today, even twelve years after graduation, I'm still insecure about my own worthiness. I have to remind myself, today you are here for a reason. Today I feel much like I did when I came to Harvard Yard as a freshman in 1999, when you guys were, to my continued shock and horror, still in kindergarten, I felt like there had been some mistake, that I wasn't smart enough to be in this company, and that every time I opened my mouth I would have to prove I wasn't just a dumb actress.

So I start with an apology. This won't be very funny. I'm not a comedian, and I didn't get a ghostwriter. But I am here to tell you, today Harvard is giving you all diplomas. Tomorrow you are here for a reason. Sometimes your insecurities and your inexperience may lead you, too, to embrace other people's expectations, standards, or values. But you can harness that inexperience to carve out your own path, one that is free of the burden of knowing how things are supposed to be, a path that is defined by its own particular set of reasons.

The other day, I went to an amusement park with my soon to be four year old son, and I watched him play arcade games. He was incredibly focused, throwing his ball at the target jewish mother that I am. I skipped 20 steps and was already imagining him as a major league player with what his his aim and his arm and his concentration. But then I realized that when he won, he was playing to trade in his tickets for the crappy plastic toys. The prize was much more exciting than the game.

To get it, I, of course, wanted to urge him to take joy in the challenge of the game, the improvement upon practice, the satisfaction of doing something well, and even feeling the accomplishment when achieving the game's goals. But all of these aspects were shaded by the little ten cent plastic men with sticky, stretchy blue arms that adhere to the walls. That was the prize.

In a child's nature, we see many of our own Innate tendencies. I saw myself in him. And perhaps you do too. Prizes serve as false idols everywhere. Prestige, wealth, fame, power. You will be exposed to many of these, if not all. Of course, part of why I was invited to come speak today, beyond my being a proud alum, is that I've Accrued some very Coveted toys in my life, including a not so plastic, not so crappy one, an Oscar.

So we bump up against a common trope, I think, of the commencement address, people who have achieved a lot, telling you that the fruits of achievement are not always to be trusted. But I think that contradiction can be Reconciled and is, in fact, Instructive. Achievement is wonderful when you know why you're doing it and when you don't know it can be a terrible trap.

I went to a public high school on Long Island. Siasset high school. Ooh. Hello, Siasid. The girls I went to school with had prada bags and flat ironed hair, and they spoke with an accent. I, who had moved there at age nine from Connecticut, mimic to fit in Florida. Oranges, chocolate cherries. Since I'm ancient and the Internet was just starting. When I was in high school, people didn't really pay that much attention to the fact that I was an actress. I was known mainly at school for having a backpack bigger than I was and always having whiteout on my hands, as I hated seeing seeing anything crossed out in my notebooks.

I was voted for my senior yearbook, most likely to be a contestant on jeopardy. Or code for nerdiest. When I got to Harvard, just after the release of Star Wars Episode one, I knew I would be starting over in terms of how people viewed me. I feared people would assume I had gotten in just for being famous and that they would think I was not worthy of the intellectual rigor here and they would not have been far from the truth. When I came here, I had never written a ten page paper before. I'm not even sure I'd written a five page paper. I was alarmed and intimidated by the calm eyes of fellow students who came here from Dalton or Exeter who thought that compared to high school, the workload here was easy.

I was completely overwhelmed and thought that reading 1000 pages a week was unimaginable, that writing a 50 page thesis was just something I could never do. I had no ideas how to declare I had no idea how to declare my intentions. I couldn't even articulate them to myself. I had been acting since I was eleven, but I thought acting was too frivolous and certainly not meaningful. I came from a family of academics and was very concerned with being taken seriously, in contrast to my inability to declare myself.

On my first day of orientation freshman year, five separate students introduced themselves to me by saying, I'm going to be president. Remember I told you that their names, for the record, were Bernie Sanders, Mark Rubio, Ted Cruz, Barack Obama, and Hillary Clinton? In all seriousness, I believed every one of them. Their bearing and self confidence alone seemed proof of their Prophecy. Where I couldnt shake my self doubt, I got in only because I was famous. This was how others saw me. It was how I saw myself.

Driven by these insecurities, I decided that I was going to find something to do at Harvard that was serious and meaningful, that would change the world and make it a better place. At the age of 18, I had already been acting for seven years and assumed I'd find a more serious and profound path in college. So freshman fall, I decided to take neurobiology and advanced modern hebrew literature because I was serious and intellectual. Needless to say, I should have failed both.

I got bees, for your information, and to this day, every Sunday, I burn a small Effigy to the pagan gods of great inflation. But as I was fighting my way through Aleph Bet Yehoshua in Hebrew and the different mechanisms of neural response, I saw friends around me writing papers on sailing and pop culture magazines, and professors teaching classes on fairy tales and the matrix.

I realized that seriousness, for seriousness sake, was its own kind of trophy, and a Dubious one, a pose. I sought to counter some half imagined argument about who I was. There was a reason I was an actor. I love what I do. And I saw from my peers and my mentors that that was not only an acceptable reason, it was the best reason.

When I got to my graduation, sitting where you sit today, after four years of trying to get excited about something else, I admitted to myself that I couldn't wait to go back and make more films. I wanted to tell stories, to imagine the lives of others and help others do the same. I had found, or perhaps reclaimed, my reason.

You have a prize now, or at least you will tomorrow. The prize is a Harvard degree in your hand. But what is your reason behind it? My Harvard degree represents for me the curiosity and invention that we're encouraged here, the friendships I've sustained. The way Professor Graham told me not to describe the way light hit a flower, but rather the shadow that the flower cast.

The way professor scarry talked about theater as a transformative religious force, how Professor Cosslin showed how much of our visual cortex is activated just by imagining. Now, granted, these things don't necessarily help me answer the most common questions I'm asked what designer are you wearing? What's your fitness regime? Any makeup tips? But I have never, since been embarrassed to myself, ask what I might previously have thought was a stupid question.

My Harvard degree and other awards are emblems of the experiences which led me to them. The wood paneled lecture halls, the colorful fall leaves, the hot vanilla toscaninis, reading great novels in overstuffed library chairs, running through dining halls screaming, ooh, ah. City, step, city, step, city, step, city, step.

It's easy now to romanticize my time here, but I had some very difficult times here, too. Some combination of being 19, dealing with my first heartbreak, taking birth control pills that have since been taken off the market for their depressive side effects, and spending too much time missing daylight during winter months led me to some pretty dark moments, particularly during sophomore year. There were several occasions I started crying in meetings with professors, overwhelmed with what I was supposed to pull off when I could barely get myself out of bed in the morning.

Moments when I took on the motto for my schoolwork done. Not good. If only I could finish my work. Even if it took eating a jumbo pack of sour patch kids to get me through a single ten page paper, I felt that I had accomplished a great feat. I'd repeat to myself, done. Not good.

A couple of years ago, I went to Tokyo with my husband and I ate at the most remarkable sushi restaurant. I don't even eat fish. I'm vegan, so that tells you how good it was. Even with just vegetables, this sushi was the stuff you dream about. The restaurant had six seats. My husband and I marveled at how anyone could make rice so superior to all other rice.

We wondered why they didn't make a bigger restaurant and be the most popular place in town. Our local friends explained to us that all the best restaurants in Tokyo are that small and do only one type of dish, sushi or tempura or teriyaki, because they want to do that thing well and beautifully. And it's not about quantity. It's about taking pleasure in the perfection and beauty of the particular.

I'm still learning now that it's about good and maybe never done that. The joy and work ethic and virtuosity we bring to the particular can impart a singular type of enjoyment to those we give to, and, of course, to ourselves.

In my professional life, it also took me time to find my own reasons for doing my work. The first film I was in came out in 1994, again appallingly, the year most of you were born. I was 13 years old upon the film's release, and I can still quote what the New York Times said about me verbatim. Miss Portman poses better than she acts.

The film had a universally tepid critical response and went on to bomb commercially. That film was called the professional, or Leon, in Europe. And today, 20 years and 35 films later, it is still the film people approach me about the most to tell me how much they loved it, how much it moved them, how it's their favorite movie.

I feel lucky that my first experience releasing a film was initially such a disaster. By all standard measures. I learned early that my meaning had to be from the experience of making the film and the possibility of connecting with individuals rather than the foremost trophies of my industry financial and critical success. And also that those initial reactions could be false predictors of your work's ultimate legacy.

I started choosing only jobs I was passionate about and from which I knew I could glean meaningful experiences. This thoroughly confused everyone around me, agents, producers and audiences alike. I made Goya's ghosts, a foreign independent film, and studied art history, visiting the Prado every day for four months. As I read about Goya and the Spanish Inquisition, I made V for Vendetta, a studio action movie for which I learned everything I could about freedom fighters, who, in other eyes, might be called terrorists.

From anachembeg into the weather underground, I made your highness, a pothead comedy with Danny McBride and laughed for three months straight. I was able to own my meaning and not have it be determined by box office receipts or prestige. By the time I got to making black swan, the experience was entirely my own. I felt immune to the worst things anyone could say or write about me, and to whether an audience felt like going to see my movie or not.

It was Instructive for me to see that. Ballet dancers for ballet dancers, once your technique gets to a certain level, the only thing that separates you from others is your quirks or even flaws. One ballerina was famous for how she turned slightly off balance. You can never be the best technically. Someone will always have a higher jump or a more beautiful line.

The only thing you can be the best at is developing your own self. Authoring your own experience was very much what Black Swan itself was about. I worked with Darren Aronofsky, the film's director, to change my last line in the movie to it was perfect because my character, Nina, is only artistically successful when she finds perfection and pleasure for herself, not when she's trying to be perfect in the eyes of others.

So when Black Swan was successful financially and I began receiving accolades, I felt honored and grateful to have connected with people. But the true core of my meaning I had already established, and I needed it to be independent of people's reactions to me. People told me that black Swan was an artistic risk, a scary challenge to try to portray a professional ballet dancer. But it didn't feel like courage or daring that drew me to it. I was so oblivious to my own limits that I did things I was woefully unprepared to do. And so the very inexperience that in college had made me feel insecure and made me want to play by others rules now was making me actually take risks I didn't even realize were risks.

When Darren asked me if I could do ballet, I told him that I was basically a ballerina, which, by the way, I wholeheartedly believed when it quickly became clear in preparing for the film that I was maybe 15 years away from being a ballerina, it made me work a million times harder. And of course, the magic of cinema and body doubles helped the final effect.

But the point is, if I had known my own limitations, I never would have taken the risk. And the risk led to one of my greatest artistic and personal experiences, in that I not only felt completely free, I also met my husband during filming. Similarly, I just directed my first film, a Tale of Love and darkness, and was quite blind to the challenges ahead of me.

The film is a period film, completely in Hebrew, in which I also act with an eight year old child as a co star. All of these are challenges I should have been terrified of, as I was completely unprepared for them. But my complete ignorance as to my own limitations looked like confidence and got me into the director's chair. Once there, I had to figure it all out. And my belief that I could handle these things, contrary to all evidence of my ability to do so, was half the battle. The other half was very hard work.

The experience was the deepest and most meaningful one of my career. Now, clearly, I'm not urging you to go perform heart surgery without the knowledge to do so. Making movies, admittedly has less drastic consequences than most professions and allows for a lot of effects that make up for mistakes. The thing I'm saying is make use of the fact that you don't doubt yourself too much right now. As we get older, we get more realistic, and that gets and that includes about our own abilities or lack thereof, and that realism does us no favors.

People always talk about diving into things you're afraid of. That never worked for me. If I'm afraid, I run away and I would probably urge my child to do the same.

Fear protects us in many ways. What has served me is diving into my own obliviousness, being more confident than I should be, which everyone tends to decry in american kids and those of us who have been great and fluent and ego inflated. Well, it can be a good thing if it makes you try things you never might have tried.

Your inexperience is an asset and will allow you to think in original, unconventional ways. Accept your lack of knowledge and use it as your asset. I know a famous violinist who told me that he can't compose because he knows too many pieces. So when he starts thinking of a note, an existing piece immediately comes to mind, just starting out. One of your biggest strengths is not knowing how things are supposed to be. You can compose freely because your mind isn't cluttered with too many pieces, and you don't take for granted the way things are.

The only way you know how to do things is your own way. You here will all go on to achieve great things. There is no doubt about that. Each time you set out to do something new. Your inexperience can either lead you down a path where you will conform to someone else's values, or you can forge your own path, even if you don't realize that's what you're doing.

If your reasons are your own, your path, even if it's a strange and clumsy path, will be wholly yours. And you will control the rewards of what you do by making your internal life fulfilling. At the risk of sounding like a Miss America contestant, the most fulfilling things I've experienced have truly been the human interactions.

Spending time with women in village banks in Mexico with Finca, a microfinance organization meeting young women who were the first and only in their communities to attend secondary school in rural Kenya with free the Children, a group that builds sustainable schools in developing countries trekking with guerrilla conservationists in Rwanda.

It's a cliche, because it's true that helping others ends up helping you more than anyone. Getting out of your own concerns and caring about someone else's life, life for a while reminds you that you are not the center of the universe and that in the ways we are, generous or not, we can change the course of someone's life.

Even at work, the small feats of kindness crew members, directors, fellow actors have shown me have had the most lasting impact. And of course, first and foremost, the center of my world is the love I share with my family and friends.

I wish for you that your friends will be with you through it all. As my friends from Harvard have been together since we graduated, my friends from school are still very close. We have nursed each other through heartaches and danced at each other's weddings.

We've held each other at funerals and rocked each other's new babies. We've worked together on projects, helped each other get jobs, and thrown parties for when we've quit bad ones. And now our children are creating a second generation of friendship. As we look at them, toddling together, haggard and disheveled, working parents that we are, grab the good people around you. Don't let them go.

The biggest asset this school offers you is a group of peers that will be both your family and your school for life. I remember always being pissed at the spring here in Cambridge, tricking us into remembering a sunny yard full of laughing frisbee throwers. After eight months of darkness. Library dwelling, it was like the school had managed to turn on the good weather as a last memory we should keep in mind that would make us want to come back.

But as I get farther away from my years here, I know that the power of this school is much deeper than weather control. It changed the very questions I was asking. To quote one of my favorite thinkers, Abraham Joshua Heschel, to be or not to be is not the question. The vital question is how to be and how not to be. Thank you. I can't wait to see how you do all the beautiful things you will do.

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